Ah you know me so well, yet no I truly wouldn't want to live forever.
You cannot be excited and in love forever. You cannot be fascinated by someone for eternity.
All must fade to grey with endless time. If we lived for eternity together Iktomi, then we would eventually part. We must don't you see? It would be preordained.
I think eternity is the saddest word.
We all would eventually be alone, broken hearts unwilling to start anew yet lingering in a half-light between life and death embracing neither.
I went out walking today looking for your door, Mr Zippers at my side. I feel comfortable here and I harbour a guilt for being pleased at not finding your exit yet. It is a dark and foreboding place yet it feels a part of me somehow. I will have a look again tomorrow.
P.S. I think I saw Scruff far off in the woods searching for me, I called but then he was gone.
To Kumiko the idea of living forever is akin to a joke repeated endlessly until it becomes meaningless and bland, or perhaps a lilac tree forever in bloom, rather than the few weeks in which we cherish its scent. Eternity, to her, is not a goal to strive for but instead something destructive which would, in its reality rather than mirage, extend existence but dull its vitality.
Today I explored the basement.
Do you remember Rabbits? The Rabbits before the genetic games and manipulations that eventually destroyed them.
Did you know it was their age old enemy the Fox that inadvertently caused their downfall? It's true. You see Foxes suddenly began to die out beyond what was natural for them. For centuries they would follow a cycle. One year the Rabbits would be plentiful, and then as a result, for the next few years the Foxes would have lots of Rabbits to eat and they would grow in numbers. They would then reduce the Rabbit population where eventually it would result in many Foxes starving over the winter. The death of the Foxes would then allow for a resurgence of Rabbits and so on and so on.
Well one year the Foxes began to die out quite rapidly. They blamed it on everything from Wind Turbines to toxins in their environment, though nobody really knew why. In our wisdom we genetically tinkered with the Rabbit species so that they became even more fertile, yet once they passed their prim mating age they would rapidly gain weight while their right hind leg would wither and twist. Essentially creating a fat crippled dinner easy for the Fox to catch.
Everyone clapped themselves on the back, yet the Foxes still died. To prevent the food chain from collapsing they build a RoboFox to wander around killing Rabbits to keep their numbers down. If only they stuck to Rabbits as they were programmed to do.
The fast breeding meaty Rabbit became the darling of the food industry and soon their genes spread far and wide across the world. Then for reasons still being debated, they became sterile and, within a shockingly short time, the Rabbits were no more.
Today in the basement I found Rabbits.
Real living Rabbits.
There was an illegal gene circus Man/Rabbit hybrid making shadow puppets on the wall while little ones watched. I sat with them a while and petted a pretty brown one who climbed on my lap.
This land I am lost in is dark... yet magical.
P.S Iktomi why does my Mother not write to me also?
|Imogens hospital bed|
I fear asking this knowing how stubborn you are, but please stay away from the basement. I don't know how it is that Rabbits came there, but once something is gone it does not come back Kumiko. Scruff is dead and the Rabbits are extinct. To imagine otherwise is not good for you.
Kumiko your mother can not write you right now as she is unwell. She was never strong in her mind and body and circumstances have been too much for her and she has... withdrawn. Imogen loves you very much Kumiko, but she needs you to come back, we need you to come home.